The Future~

     This morning Lord I awoke and considered that my life used to be one that was routine. I even felt trapped in the repetitiousness of it. Now I see that some of it was quite comforting. The joy of watching season move to season, the comfort of family close by, the assurance of what to expect month by month and week by week. I am just as predictable as other people in wanting what I don't have! Then I wanted change, now I want routine.... I miss fitting in with my farm, I miss family, I miss the joy of the seasons...  Yet!!
     Yet all of this is worth giving up to pursue You. I would not go back to all of that and lose the relationship I have found with You.
     I don't know why I had to let it all go to find You, except that I had it wrapped so closely around me that there was no space left for You? Now I have simply the bare essentials of what I need, and You comfort me. When I cry out in loneliness You draw near, When I have questioned the next season, You have promised Your protection and provision. My home has become that place under Your wing. Thank You Lord!
     There is nothing that I have "needed" that I have had to do without- when I fretted about finances You asked "what have you done without?" and I saw that You had always provided! When I needed a doctor and hospital care, You provided - When we needed a tow truck, You brought "angels" - When we needed somewhere to live in a new town, You provided an expense free place -  When Lane needed a new job, You provided - When we needed an apartment, You even provided an apartment with a lake right outside of our deck - When I needed a car, You provided - When we needed direction, You brought leaders - 
     For all the things I used to have and remember fondly, or even not so fondly I freely turn them loose with love, memory and no regret, for the future You have given me is lovelier than can be imagined in our worldly minds.
     A future in Your very presence! How sweet, how lovely, how amazing! ~

~Lorna Mercer

Under Your Wing

Good Morning Lord~
     Thank You Father for Your protection and provision. Thank You for Your eternal, encompassing love!
     I praise You Lord, You are so worthy of praise! You the Great Creator, the everlasting One, the Powerful One that keeps the world spinning, the universe sticking together and each persons heart beating - You are so amazing!
     Even as I try to grasp the fullness of You I am overcome with my lack of ability to fathom the depths of Your being and yet You love me! I am Your creation, the subject of Your love and thoughts and plans! Amazing! Thank You Father!
     I've heard stories of Your home(heaven) and look forward excitedly to getting to experience it and to praise You in Your Throne Room! To actually be in Your presence there leave me wordless with joyful anticipation!
     Yet You have work and battles for me to complete - I purpose to walk in Your will daily - hourly! and purpose to not waste any of the time or resources You give me. As Joshua fought and destroyed all of the enemies in the land promised to Israel I will fight all that keeps or hinders me from Your perfect will or that sets as an enemy of Your way Lord. As You delivered their enemies into their hands as they walked with You, this I will walk with You and battle as Joshua did. Whether it be from within myself or without - if it be my own sinful nature it will be put to death. If it be scoffers or those who would try to detour me I will not accept them! I will root them out of my way and not be hindered! I will shout out Your name! I will trust in You! I will follow You on Your narrow path, I will find my protection and rest under Your wing.
     Thank You Lord! You have given the promises of Your strength, protection and provision to Your children, to any who will seek You. That is what I"m doing with all that I am Father.
     In Jesus name I pray, Amen